I am a self-taught artist from Germany, science enthusiast and a kind of part-time writer (hobbyist) with a passion for physics, math, speculative and abstract thoughts and introspection.
In my works I include topics of these interests/ passions.
I was born in Dresden, Germany, on the 11th November 1997.
In my early childhood I liked to draw. I had strong visions and was all the time disappointed, because of my very high perfectionism I have since I can think.
Later in elementary school I began to write short stories. It evolved and when I was around twelve years old I began to write poems in my native language German. My first English poems were written in 2013, and later I began the project "Parody of Paradoxes", a collection of poems mostly about paradoxes and the twisted mind.
I can't forget to mention my difficult relationship with science (and mathematics); Until secondary school I liked science a lot. But later I was not interested in science and math at all. The schools I visited always seemed to show only the worst of the sciences, namely memorizing facts without truly understanding them. But then something very positive happened. I had a friend who was very interested in physics, mostly quantum mechanics, and he always told me about the crazy theories in there. I was immediately thrilled! Then I began my own research. It was 2013 when I became interested in science again. And what was with mathematics? I changed the schools very often, and in 2012 I got a very good math teacher. She could explain it very easily and so figuratively as well. Since then I began my journey in mathematics. But it wasn't everything. As my passion for physics and cosmology evolved I began to stumble across wonderful hypotheses and theories in mathematics through the internet and books. I began to research about phi, the golden ratio, and about pure mathematics, the Langlands program (alias "the theory of everything" of mathematics). I began to understand my thoughts through mathematics - and I began to understand math through my thoughts! A strange loop was born!
My studies continued and I began to create a hypothesis about the structure of elementary particles. In February 2016 I worked further on my hypothesis which soon became two hypotheses - EPoO and EPGH - the Equivalence Principle of Opposites, and Elementary Particle Geometry Hypothesis. EPoO is the philosophical and partly "mathematical" part whilst EPGH is the more physics-related part. Together these hypotheses offer a lot of interesting thoughts.
Since then these hypotheses are evolving.
As I began to read Gödel, Escher, Bach by Douglas Hofstadter I was really amazed, it helped me to come further with my hypotheses. Finally I seemed to having found the main key to my hypothesis - Gödel's Incompleteness Theorem!
Later in 2017 the Hypothesis of the Complex Mind (HotCM) evolved from an epilogue I wrote earlier. It contains thoughts about consciousness and intuition.
Science plays a huge role in my art, and indeed, a lot of my art is inspired by science and also a bit of philosophy.
Modern "education" has become something that has absolutely nothing to do with true education, especially thinking sceptically and learning to deeper understand the issue, rather it has become a very effective tool to control the masses.
Todays students are only slaves to the system, but they live in their slavery without even knowing. They are only paid to consume and thus to feed the system even more. Fools are we who accept everything and question nothing!
To break free from this vicious cycle of only stupid memorizing facts without even understanding them, and obeying authorities without questioning their actions one has to become a modern rebel, because true education comes from deep within, the desire to fully grasp the matter; Education has become an act of rebellion!
A path leads to the endless blackness of the infinite void. And truly; I drown in analogies and wake up in a dream that's called reality.
No way is visible, for it fades into a single tangle of recursive self-reference. You and I - We are one in perfection, merge into a symbiosis of self-similar fractals. We are pleonasms and yet false tautologies!
Many people are used to the idea that the arts don't go well with the sciences. I have seen so many artists who disvalue science and/or mathematics, or just say 'I don't get it.' or 'It doesn't interest me at all.'. Sure I have to accept that, but it made me think about the way science and math are teached.
There comes the following quote in my mind:
"What if at school you had to take an 'art class' in which you were only taught how to paint a fence? What if you were never shown the paintings of Leonardo da Vinci and Picasso? Would that make you appreciate art? Would you want to learn more about it? I doubt it..........but this is how math is taught and so in the eyes of most of us it becomes the equivalent of watching paint dry. While the paintings of the great masters are readily available, the math of the great masters is locked away."
- by Edward Frenkel (Love&Math)
On the other hand I also know science enthusiasts who don't like art either, or at least don't be bothered about it.
Perhaps the way art and science contradict seems to split mankind into "the artists" and "the scientists"
The way scientist's minds work seems to differ from the artist's... Nevertheless it's the great geniuses of our history who filled the gap of this contradiction in the most beautiful manner: People like Leonardo da Vinci, M.C.Escher, Salvador Dali, Nikola Tesla... only to name a few...
Understanding art and science as parts of our consciousness, art being the "hidden and subconscious mind", the creativity, the "liquid and gaseous", whilst science is the merely conscious mind, the logic, the "solid"...
Coming to understand the used analogy of aggregate states a little better, we can conclude that the fundaments of both creativity and logic are actually the same; It's just the way we put them together.
In the end I just have to say that logic is the purest form of creativity, the "solid state of mind"...Nevertheless the gaseous and liquid are important too... Science can't live without true art; And true art can't live without a glimpse of science...
I often heard people say "There's a thin line between insanity and ingeniousity."
But that's just partly true; I'd rather say that ingeniousity is a kind of tamed insanity, because the genius knows how to handle, arrange and order chaotic thoughts whilst the lunatic is merely a slave to his own messy thoughts.
One could even bring up the analogy of aggregate states again; The ingenious is like the solid; it's compressed and has a given structure, whilst the insane is more like a liquid or even a gas; thus it leaves far more freedom of the spread of thoughts.
The true genius knows how to arrange all the chaotic thoughts to shape a solid and stable construct of thoughts.
But the genius is not the solid itself (the medium or matter), but the process of phase transition itself.
It is actually also similar to the standard model of elementary particles where there are not only particles of matter (Fermions), but also particles of forces (Bosons)...
Now we're coming deeper down the rabbit hole of the principles of synergetics described by Hermann Haken...Synergetics is the study of interaction and is a very intertwined and inter-disciplinary field spanning from simple physical systems up to very complex systems such as complex life forms. It not only spans physics and chemistry, but also cognitive science, sociology and psychology. I think it's crazy to have such broad connections across everything that is in front of us!
Synergetics not only is about interactions, it's also about so called "phase transitions". It means that something different evolves from the previous thing, and the most wonderful explanation of it is the arising of order from chaos"!: In Hermann Haken's book Die Selbstorganisation komplexer Systeme he writes the following:
"Microscopic chaos creates makroscopic order."
Interesting to have in mind is the struggle between the two pillars of modern physics: The microscopic, the quantum world, behaves probabilistically, whilst the makroscopic, the universe, behaves deterministically.
Synergetics is still something very unknown... I actually wonder why. It gives a lot of insight about all the issues of science!
"Be the light you want to see in this world!", they said. Nevertheless they never told me about the divine act of letting my antimatter being crossed with matter. Hence my light filled everything of this eternal blackness. Now it’s all bathed in the bright shade of light. Thus I tremble in infinite white void, not being able to recognize any pattern nor structure. Letting myself cross with the outer world, oh dear, leaving my safe barrier of vacuum, darling, it costs more than the death of an entire universe!
And in the darkness, let there be light! It’s meant to be the death of an old world to create a new one out of a pure act of blind destruction.
From black to white;
from obscurity to light,
that may be a dance
or a rhythmic might!
From the obscure to the bright;
could indeed be a blinding sight;
what a wonder at first glance,
but how cruel the actual fight.
In the eyes of the dead
a new chance of choice,
let the dice roll again,
and let there be light so bright!